By LES VISIBLE
Dog Poet Transmitting…….
This moving account of Les Visible’s recent health problems is followed by a 3-minute video poem called “Mystic Musing”, beautifully ready by Patrick Willis. My heart goes out to Les in his pain and suffering. His stoical endurance of the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune reminds me in many ways of the life and work of Marcus Aurelius. However you look at it, Les is a unique spirit sustained by his faith in the unseen world, a world of angels and demons — in short, by the Ineffable.
LES VISIBLE IN HIS PRIME
My friends, I am truly sorry for keeping you in the dark about my situation and my status. About two weeks ago I went to sit down. I didn’t fall. I wasn’t addled. I heard a crack and my other hip broke. It was around midnight and my friend was on the East Coast. I called my friend and was not believed for a bit; surely I was joking? I wasn’t. So… for almost 20 hours I had to sit and move as little as I could until my friend arrived. By grace I had some small amount of a painkilling substance but it was by no means enough or strong enough but otherwise, surely I would have lost my mind. Something I thought I had lost a long time ago but, however, pain definitely concentrates the mind.
My friend called an ambulance and I was taken to the hospital and the next day they replaced my other hip. Now they are both replaced and I am using a walker and almost getting around. I had enough pain medication to mute the pain while hospitalized but that was all. When I was discharged, I received enough for five days and they said they would give no more. When the other hip broke in Germany I received two weeks more than I have gotten here and that was sufficient for me to make it on my own.
The result is that I have been in extreme pain until earlier today when I started having drinks, which I am moderating so as to keep the pain at bay because each day it lessens by some degree. This morning, getting out of bed was an experience I hope I never repeat. I was screaming for a short time until I got myself righted. I am not asking for sympathy or support of any kind. This will pass.
I do not understand why I have been plagued with such physical problems in recent years. I’m told I will be fine and that this is all at an end but I have been told such things before.
I do not know what to think but perhaps you can understand why I have been reluctant to communicate and have simply chosen to bear this in silence until it passes. Forgive me if this is the wrong decision but I couldn’t have written this until recently because of the difficulty of movement and controlling my mind in respect of all of these tasks.
I have spent deep meditation upon why I should be experiencing this. I had near convinced myself that I was one of the good guys (grin). The looming fear is that I have been under attack and I certainly went through a few of those recently… leading up to this.
I am protected but not entirely, apparently. I have been told I made an agreement before I came here to ease the passage of others by taking upon myself a degree of suffering. It seems to me now that at this time (if true) I did not know what I was agreeing to. I can only hope this passes and that I get some period of respite for a time. It has been excruciating. I never expected this but… what are you going to do?
I have put myself out of reach for a time and sought out a cloistered sanctuary of sorts. You would think as creative as I am I would have made the effort to have the necessary analgesics but it is one of those things that is kismet-fate-whatever you want to call it.
Let me assure you that my pain lessens each day and now I can get about with a bearable state, unless I am just getting used to it.
Some of you are being very insistent about reaching me and some of you have even shown at at the door of the house where I was living. How some of you managed that I don’t know. Please do not do this anymore. I am asking with real concern that no one goes to the trouble or expense to hunt me down. I will be very unhappy should you do this. Let me be and all will be well. There is nothing you can do and I am already healing more rapidly than a normal person would. You need have no concern for me. What can be done is being done unless you can teleport things (grin).
Remember me in your prayers. That should be sufficient. Ask the ineffable to grant me protection from whatever this is that has been coming at me. I have been involved in a war for some time. Of course the only war there is is within us but at the same time, God does not have angels for no reason and all of us have different destinies and some of us have unusual destinies.
My biggest concern is the fear that has come upon me now and again recently as I cannot fathom the rhyme nor reason for this. It may well be that all will be well now. I will certainly proceed with caution and the fear does not remain long since I know the ineffable loves me and through me.
I don’t want to write anymore. I can’t think of more to say but let me ASSURE you that I am better than I was yesterday and much better than the day before that. If I could think of something you could do for me I would ask but prayer is all I can think of. I had to admit to some amount of laughter upon celebrating my birthday in a hospital bed (grin)
I had been planning to record the Lord of the Rings as a Christmas present for you all and a few other things; they must all wait now for a bit but where there is life and breath they will occur.
Please do not indulge in anxiety or hysteria; God is great and good and real and all will be well! Be certain of that. We are not given more than we can bear, even if it seems so at times.
Please be well and do not concern yourself with me. Everything is much improved and it will resolve itself and bright days I am sure, do lie ahead.
Much Love to you!!!